ALIYAH MARR: “Dark Night Of The Soul — Unraveling The Matrix”

I went through the most amazing depression since the beginning of the year. Then for a few days, the “sun came out”—I realized that I was finally able to see beauty and taste my food. Then I realized how long it had been since I last felt this way.

In that euphoric mood, I had clarity, purpose, reason, logic, and vision; all of which I have missed for almost three years now. I felt as if I came out from a long, dark tunnel into a bright sunny day.

Depression is physical, not emotional, and certainly not mental.

We tend to think that depression is emotional and we all think that it can be changed by changing your personal thoughts, but the state of depression is a symptom of the long-held and trapped—or frozen—energy in our body.

Energy as matter, trapped in the physical form, must go through a sublimation process in order for the body/soul of the individual to move to a higher vibratory state or consciousness.

Depression cannot be changed by changing your thoughts. It is too deep; it is embedded codes/patterns/programming that is held in your body.

I now understand that emotional depression is caused by a wave of transformative, evolutionary energy that hits the physical body and “squeezes” it until it releases codes and programs held in the cells. The codes trapped in the cells release energy in the form of emotion—this emotion is dark, slow-moving, and feels toxic as it is released.

One feels depression because the trapped codes expressed as emotion when they come out and this emotion is of a very low vibration. But because the codes are being released (into the energy of emotion), they are actually at a higher vibration than when they were trapped; they are on the way out of the body, on the way to being released back into raw energy.

The analogy that comes to mind is that of the natural states of water: in the physical form, the codes are frozen, like ice. To release the water in the ice back to its liquid form, you have to heat it until it hits the higher vibratory state of water (emotion); finally, if you heat it enough—raising its vibration—the water becomes steam (mental) and floats away.

ICE (physical) —-> WATER (emotional) —–> STEAM (mental) —-> released energy

To release energy from matter involves a reversal of the manifestation process. The book, The Tarot Key, Unlock the Secrets of Your Soul, shows how creation works through our bodies—the four states of the energy-to-matter manifestation process are analogous to the four classical elements:

ENERGY ———————————————-> MATTER

FIRE ——> AIR ————–> WATER ——–> EARTH

INTENT–> THOUGHTS –> EMOTIONS –> REALITY

In order to unravel the codes, you have to reverse the process, and in doing so, you naturally go through each of the levels of vibratory awareness. This means that, as they release, the codes must first go through the emotional body (registering as depression), then they hit the mental body as confusing, uncontrollable thoughts, and finally, when those are released, they evaporate.

MATTER ———————————————-> ENERGY

EARTH ——> WATER ————–> AIR ——–> FIRE

EARTH————-> EMOTIONS ——————> THOUGHTS ————> INTENT (ENERGY)

Physical Pain—–> Fear-based Emotions ——> Mental Confusion ——> Pure Energy (available for the application of your intent)

See this video, Unraveling the Matrix to see what I mean.

 

This morning another wave of “depression” hit me again. I remembered a technique I used some years ago with physical pain: I mentally “turn my cells sideways” like vertical blinds so that they are not hit broadside by the energy wave. This helps reduce emotional pain as well as physical pain.

 

About the author: Aliyah Marr is an experienced creative life coach and author of Unplug from the Matrix and The Avatars of Eden. Transform your life; become the you you always intended to be. https://www.parallelmindzz.com

 

~via In5D.com

 

Photo by Ascension Avatar – 6-22-2019 – “Unraveling the Sun”

 

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CAITLIN JOHNSTONE: “The U.S. Army Asked Twitter How Service Has Impacted People — And The Answers Were Gut-Wrenching”

May 27, 2019

After posting a video of a young recruit talking to the camera about how service allows him to better himself “as a man and a warrior”, the US Army tweeted, “How has serving impacted you?”

As of this writing, the post has over 5,300 responses. Most of them are heartbreaking.

“My daughter was raped while in the army,” said one responder. “They took her to the hospital where an all male staff tried to convince her to give the guy a break because it would ruin his life. She persisted. Wouldn’t back down. Did a tour in Iraq. Now suffers from PTSD.”

“I’ve had the same nightmare almost every night for the past 15 years,” said another.

Tweet after tweet after tweet, people used the opportunity that the Army had inadvertently given them to describe how they or their loved one had been chewed up and spit out by a war machine that never cared about them. This article exists solely to document a few of the things that have been posted in that space, partly to help spread public awareness and partly in case the thread gets deleted in the interests of “national security”. Here’s a sampling in no particular order:

“Someone I loved joined right out of high school even though I begged him not to. Few months after his deployment ended, we reconnected. One night, he told me he loved me and then shot himself in the head. If you’re gonna prey on kids for imperialism, at least treat their PTSD.”

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“After I came back from overseas I couldn’t go into large crowds without a few beers in me. I have nerve damage in my right ear that since I didn’t want to look weak after I came back I lied to the VA rep. My dad was exposed to agent orange which destroyed his lungs, heart, liver and pancreas and eventually killing him five years ago. He was 49, exposed at a post not Vietnam, and will never meet my daughter my nephew. I still drink to much and I crowds are ok most days but I have to grocery shop at night and can’t work days because there is to many ppl.”

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“The dad of my best friend when I was in high school had served in the army. He struggled with untreated PTSD & severe depression for 30 years, never told his family. Christmas eve of 2010, he went to their shed to grab the presents & shot himself in the head. That was the first funeral I attended where I was actually told the cause of death & the reasons surrounding it. I went home from the service, did some asking around, & found that most of the funerals I’ve attended before have been caused by untreated health issues from serving.”

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“My dad was drafted into war and was exposed to agent orange. I was born w multiple physical/neurological disabilities that are linked back to that chemical. And my dad became an alcoholic with ptsd and a side of bipolar disorder.”

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“i met this guy named christian who served in iraq. he was cool, had his own place with a pole in the living room. always had lit parties. my best friend at the time started dating him so we spent a weekend at his crib. after a party, 6am, he took out his laptop. he started showing us some pics of his time in the army. pics with a bunch of dudes. smiling, laughing. it was cool. i was drunk and didn’t care. he started showing us pics of some little kids. after a while, his eyes went completely fucking dark. i was like man, dude’s high af. he very calmly explained to us that all of those kids were dead ‘but that’s what war was. dead kids and nothing to show for it but a military discount’. christian killed himself 2 months later.”

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“I didn’t serve but my dad did. In Vietnam. It eventually killed him, slowly, over a couple of decades. When the doctors were trying to put in a pacemaker to maybe extend his life a couple of years, his organs were so fucked from the Agent Orange, they disintegrated to the touch. He died when I was ten. He never saw me graduate high school. He never saw me get my first job or buy my first car. He wasn’t there. But hey! Y’all finally paid out 30k after another vet took the VA to the Supreme Court, so. You know. It was cool for him.”

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“Chronic pain with a 0% disability rating (despite medical discharge) so no benefits, and anger issues that I cope with by picking fistfights with strangers.”

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“My parents both served in the US Army and what they got was PTSD for both of them along with anxiety issues. Whenever we go out in public and sit down somewhere my dad has to have his back up against the wall just to feel a measure of comfort that no one is going to sneak up on him and kill him and and walking up behind either of them without announcing that you’re there is most likely going to either get you punch in the face or choked out.”

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“Many of my friends served. All are on heavy antidepressant/anxiety meds, can’t make it through 4th of July or NYE, and have all dealt with heavy substance abuse problems before and after discharge. And that’s on top of one crippled left hand, crushed vertebra, and GSWs.”

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“Left my talented and young brother a broken and disabled man who barely leaves the house. Left my mother hypervigilant & terrified due to the amount of sexual assault & rape covered up and looked over by COs. Friend joined right out if HS, bullet left him paralyzed neck down.”

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“My cousin went to war twice and came back with a drug addiction that killed him. My other cousin could never get paid on time and when he left they tried to withhold his pay.”

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“It’s given me a fractured spine, TBI, combat PTSD, burn pit exposure, and a broken body with no hope of getting better. Not even medically retired for a fractured spine. WTF.”

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“Y’all killed my father by failing to provide proper treatments after multiple tours.”

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“Everyone I know got free PTSD and chemical exposure and a long engagement in their efforts to have the US pay up for college tuition. Several lives ruined. No one came out better. Thank god my recruiter got a DUI on his way to get me or I would be dead or worse right now.”

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“I have ptsd and still wake up crying at night. Also have a messed up leg that I probably will have to deal with the rest of my life. Depression. Anger issues.”

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“My grandfather came back from Vietnam with severe PTSD, tried to drown it in alcohol, beat my father so badly and so often he still flinches when touched 50 years later. And I grew up with an emotionally scarred father with PTSD issues of his own because of it. Good times.”

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“Hmmm. Let’s see. I lost friends, have 38 inches of scars, PTSD and a janky arm and hand that don’t work.”

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“my grandpa served in vietnam from when he was 18-25. he’s 70 now and every night he still has nightmares where he stands up tugging at the curtains or banging on the walls screaming at the top of his lungs for someone to help him. he refuses to talk about his time and when you mention anything about the war to him his face goes white and he has a panic attack. he cries almost every day and night and had to spend 10 years in a psychiatric facility for suicidal ideations from what he saw there.”

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“My best friend joined the Army straight out of high school because his family was poor & he wanted a college education. He served his time & then some. Just as he was ready to retire he was sent to Iraq. You guys sent him back in a box. It destroyed his children.”

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“Well, my father got deployed to Iraq and came back a completely different person. Couldn’t even work the same job he had been working 20 years before that because of his anxiety and PTSD. He had nightmares, got easily violent and has terrible depression. But the army just handed him pills, now he is 100% disabled and is on a shit ton of medication. He has nightmares every night, paces the house barely sleeping, checking every room just to make sure everyone’s safe. He’s had multiple friends commit suicide.”


“Father’s a disabled Vietnam veteran who came home with severe PTSD and raging alcoholism. VA has continuously ignored him throughout the years and his medical needs and he receives very little compensation for all he’s gone through. Thanks so much!!”

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“I was #USNavy, my husband was #USArmy, he served in Bosnia and Iraq and that nice, shy, funny guy was gone, replaced with a withdrawn, angry man…he committed suicide a few years later…when I’m thanked for my service, I just nod.”

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“I’m permanently disabled because I trained through severe pain after being rejected from the clinic for ‘malingering.’ Turns out my pelvis was cracked and I ended up having to have hip surgery when I was 20 years old.”

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“My brother went into the Army a fairly normal person, became a Ranger (Ft. Ord) & came out a sociopath. He spent the 1st 3 wks home in his room in the dark, only coming out at night when he thought we were asleep. He started doing crazy stuff. Haven’t seen him since 1993.”

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“Recently attended the funeral for a west point grad with a 4yr old and a 7yr old daughter because he blew his face off to escape his ptsd but thats nothing new.”


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“I don’t know anyone in my family who doesn’t suffer from ptsd due to serving. One is signed off sick due to it & thinks violence is ok. Another (navy) turned into a psycho & thought domestic violence was the answer to his wife disobeying his orders.”

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“My dad served during vietnam, but after losing close friends and witnessing the killing of innocents by the U.S., he refused to redeploy. He has suffered from PTSD ever since. The bravest thing he did in the army was refuse to fight any longer, and I’m so proud of him for that.”

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“My best friend from high school was denied his mental health treatment and forced to return to a third tour in Iraq, despite having such deep trauma that he could barely function. He took a handful of sleeping pills and shot himself in the head two weeks before deploying.”

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“Bad back, hips, and knees. Lack of trust, especially when coming forward about sexual harassment. Detachment, out of fear of losing friends. Missed birthdays, weddings, graduations, and funerals. I get a special license plate tho.”

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“My son died 10 months ago. He did 3 overseas tours. He came back with severe mental illness.”

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“I’m still in and I’m in constant pain and they recommended a spinal fusion when I was 19. Y’all also won’t update my ERB so I can’t use the education benefits I messed myself up for.”

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“My dad served two tours in middle east and his personality changes have affected my family forever. VA ‘counseling’ has a session limit and doesn’t send you to actual psychologists. Military service creates a mental health epidemic it is then woefully unequipped to deal with.”

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“My best childhood friend lost his mind after his time in the marines and now he lives in a closet in his mons house and can barely hold a conversation with anyone. He only smokes weed and drinks cough syrup that he steals since he can’t hold a job.”

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“After coming back from Afghanistan…..Matter fact I don’t even want to talk about it. Just knw that my PTSD, bad back, headaches, chronic pain, knee pain, and other things wishes I would have NEVER signed that contract. It was NOT worth the pain I’ll endure for the rest of life.”

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“My cousin served and came back only to be diagnosed with schizophrenia and ptsd. There were nights that he would lock himself in the bathroom and stay in the corner because he saw bodies in the bathtub. While driving down the highway, he had another episode and drove himself into a cement barrier, engulfing his Jeep in flames and burning alive. My father served as well and would never once speak of what he witnessed and had to do. He said it’s not something that any one person should ever be proud of.”


“I was sexually assaulted by a service member at 17 when I visited my sister on her base, then again at 18. My friend got hooked on k2 and died after the va turned him away for mental health help. Another friend serving was exploited sexually by her co and she was blamed for it.”

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“I spent ten years in the military. I worked 15 hour days to make sure my troops were taken care of. In return for my hard work I was rewarded with three military members raping me. I was never promoted to a rank that made a difference. And I have an attempt at suicide. Fuck you!”

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“I actually didn’t get around to serving because I was sexually assaulted by three of my classmates during a military academy prep program. They went to the academies and are still active duty officers. I flamed out of the program and have PTSD.”

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“My father’s successful military career taught him that he’s allowed to use violence to make people do what he wants because America gave him that power.”

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“While I was busy framing ‘soliders and families first’ (lol) propaganda posters, my best friend went to ‘Iraqistan’ but he didn’t come back. He returned alive, to be sure, but he was no longer the fun, carefree, upbeat person he’d previously been.”

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“My husband is a paraplegic and can’t control 3/4 of his body now. Me, I’ve got PTSD, an anxiety disorder, two messed up knees, depression, a bad back, tinnitus, and chronic insomnia. I wish both had never served.”

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“This is one of the most heartbreaking threads I’ve ever read.”

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“I am so sorry. The way we fail our service members hurts my heart. My grandfather served in the Korean War and had nightmares until his death at 91 years old. We must do better.”

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“My Army story is that when I was in high school, recruiters were there ALL the time- at lunch, clubs, etc.- targeting the poor kids at school. I didn’t understand it until now. You chew people who have nothing at home up and spit them out.”

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“I was thinking about enlisting until I saw this thread. Hard pass.”

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“I hope to god that the Army has enough guts to read these and realize how badly our servicepeople are being treated. Thank you and god bless you to all of you in this thread, and your loved ones who are suffering too.”

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There are many, many more.

 

~via WakingTimes.com

DEJAN DAVCEVSKI: “5 Things Each Person Can Do To Help People Struggling With Mental Health”

Ascension Avatar note: I flip-flopped on whether to post this since it is a simplistic ‘3D’ perspective without touching on the roots of what we could term ‘mental health issues’… many of which could actually be parasitic entities or mind control implants, unhealed past-life trauma, or something as common as ascension awakening symptoms. Discernment is the key and in my opinion “there’s no healing like self-healing.” 🙂

 

Mental health is as important as any other type of health. Mental illness is a global issue. People start to see mental illnesses as a real problem but many still have prejudices about what mental illnesses really are.

Just because something can’t be seen it does not mean it’s not real. Someone struggling with clinical depression needs care and support as much someone with broken arm. Maybe even more. Imagine being sick and having nobody around you to help you heal.

My point is that people struggling with mental health issues usually struggle alone because people around them can’t see their problem and can’t understand their pain. But they don’t have to. There are ways you can help people struggling with mental health.

In this modern society with advanced technology there are countless ways to get to the right information, to educate yourself and find ways to give a helping hand. There are countless ways to make people connect, share and help each other.

Depression, panic attacks and anxiety are a global epidemic. There are certainly people around you who suffer in silence. Maybe it’s even you. But if you know someone who struggles with mental health, here are 5 ways you can help them.

5 Ways You Can Help People Struggling With Mental Health:

 

1. Be considerate and friendly.

People who struggle with mental health need love and support. The last thing they need is to feel isolated and alone. You should listen to them, try to understand them and be compassionate about their inner struggles. Don’t try to push them, just be a friend. All they need is a friend who they can open up to. In fact, genuine connection is probably the biggest thing that can help them.

2. Look at their health issue as a real problem because it is.

Whatever they struggle with, depression, panic attacks, anxiety, or some other mental disorder, see it as a real illness. Just because it’s not visible it doesn’t mean it is not affecting their inner chemistry and emotions. People who struggle with mental health want you to acknowledge their pain. They want you to see that they are struggling inside, because they feel like nobody understands they are in pain, and yet, they need help.

3. Read and educate.

In today’s age there is no excuse to not know about mental disorders. The information and knowledge is everywhere. It’s literally available to you in a couple of clicks away on a device that’s inside your pocket. So at least try to educate yourself about what these people who you care about are struggling with. Read about what’s the possible cause, what’s the possible fix, how they feel. It will give you bigger compassion.

4. Give a sincere advice.

If you really care about someone who struggles with mental health you will probably try to help them by giving them advices. If they are sad, you’ll tell them to not be sad. If they worry too much you’ll tell them not to worry. If they have anxiety you’ll ask them to stop feeling anxious. But the problem is they would have done it if they could. The advice should be from the heart. Tell them how you dealt with anxiety yourself when you felt anxious.

5. Show them ways that can fix their problem for good.

A couple of years ago mental health might have been something that not many people understood or were aware of. But today the awareness is growing and there are countless options for help and therapy. The internet itself offers many ways to come in contact with professionals who can personally help with mental health, or at least show techniques through articles and videos.

 

~via LifeCoachCode.com

NIKKI COLOMBO: “Energy Update — Depression”

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Many of us have been feeling really depressed and down right crappy this week.

Headaches, anxiety, back pain, clearing out our root chakra’s painful memories, and vivid sometimes scary dreams.

Many of us feel cut off and lonely and the only contact we have is online.

This is sometimes viewed as not as important as having friends in real life but some of us have had and are having some fantastic, mind blowing, stimulating connections online.  This should not devalue our connections as for some its the only connection they have.

Some friends and family of ours are not as enlightened and it can be frustrating attending social gatherings after have a glass of wine or two to jump in with your knowledge when our friends and family initiate a conversation about politics or awakening and don’t dare start talking about ETs at the risk of everyone looking at you with judgmental eyes.

Nothing is more frustrating to an enlightened soul than to be cut off whilst on a roll about knowledge you know a lot about.  Your intuition and telepathy pick up on people judging you as a “know it all” don’t let this deter you, you DO know a lot, we are the strongest of the strongest souls and we agreed to come here as “the ground crew” for a very important soul mission.

Let us never forget this is a special important time to experience here and we have more support on the other side of the veils than we realize.  We are shooting through space at a gazillion miles per second as vibration into matter and with every second (yes I am aware time doesn’t exist but for context purposes lets just call it that for now) we have free will to make choices and to change those choices as we pulse in and out as a light and sound frequency.  Tomorrow is another day and we are reborn to live in that “now” moment once again.

My wish is that one day we could all go on a word wide cruise picking up our friends along the way to be able to give that big bear hug we all so long for.

As always with love, gratitude, In Lak’ech and Namaste .

Nikki Colombo

 

 

About the author: Nikki Colombo experienced a full blown spontaneous Kundalini Rising event in 2007 that catapulted a “Starseed Awakening” opening her third eye to perceive multidimensional realities and communication with the Evolutionary forces of Light known as the Melchizedek Guardians. Her spiritual mission is to support humanity through its evolution with education and awareness and by consulting the impacts of the energy shifts upon the planet, and human consciousness. She is an Empath, Intuitive, Spiritual Guide and Healer, NDE- Near Death Experiencer, a Walk In, Researcher, Writer, Psychic, Astrologist, Numerologist, Contactee, ET Experiencer, Chakra Clearer, Starseed and Tarot Reader. You can personal message me for Private Consultations, Guest Workshops, Retreats and Events. I perform all intuitive guidance under the most Inspirational, Spiritual and Sacred Insight to ensure the highest value it is delivered to my clients serving you with the full extent of my knowledge, wisdom, skills and talents. ~via In5D.com

STEPHANIE LUCAS: “5 Pitfalls of Lightworkers: Struggles They & Other Energy Healers Face”

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Lightworkers and those who consciously and subconsciously serve humanity with healing Love and Light face their own struggles, and I can only imagine that truly incarnated Lightworkers face dark times on a profound level. After all, they are willingly sharing their energy, their vibrational resonance, and give love to others constantly, which must be rather draining. Lightworkers actively protect themselves from energy drains and are continually regenerating white light to do their tasks – until part or all of their mind body spirit falls into a pit of darkness.Yes, Lightworkers have pitfalls, and they often need the aid of another lightworker or energy healer to draw them out of the hole and back into the grace of the Divine light so they can continue their work as earthbound healers. Here are some common pitfalls of Lightworkers and those who work mostly in the light.

Falling Into Karmic Burdens

As mentioned in a previous post, Signs of Lightworkers, these souls tend to carry a heavy karmic burden that stubbornly stands in their way on the path to enlightenment. Even while doing light work they may be in a state of disarray at times concerning their personal journey. Lightworkers who are Living in the Present Moment are essentially attempting to right some past life wrong through their actions, and their spirits suffer in transient stages.

Getting Lost in Blind Illusions and Ignorance

Fighting karmic burdens can put lightworkers – just as they do anyone – in temporary states of fear and disillusion. Because their path requires them to be free of these burdens in order to successfully spread only the love and light, they MUST face fears and remember their divine purpose on earth. They must work against the ignorance of materialism in the physical world and embrace their true identity. In states of blindness and ignorance, many lightworkers suffer from temporary amnesia. This can cause them to fall back into 3-D consciousness and they won’t emanate at a high enough resonance and frequency to truly help others.

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Depression, Doubts, and Feelings of Hopelessness

Along with times of fear and the inability to temporarily proceed with their life’s mission, Lightworkers have a tendency to fall into states of depression when facing their karmic burdens. They may begin to doubt their abilities, feel like ‘giving up,’ or believe that working in the light isn’t their calling after all. However, genuine lightworkers have a knack for ‘working’ their way through dark issues and getting back into the light quickly.

Loneliness and Feelings Something is ‘Wrong’ with Them

Because they spend a good deal of time recharging their batteries and must be careful of being around large groups of people due to their Empathic Sourced Anxieties, lightworkers often feel alone and like they don’t ‘belong’ anywhere. I think people all too often expect energy and light healers to be ‘on’ all the time, leaving them with no one to talk to when they need some love and light, and that can certainly make one feel ‘flawed.’

Taking Extreme Risks

Lightworkers don’t seem to have a fear of death and why would they? They understand that we are all one constrant stream of energy flowing through the universe and find solace in the transient nature of our essence as immortal beings. Therefore, they can be rather extreme risk-takers in the physical realm.

These are just a few of the struggles of lightworkers in general, so be mindful of your friends who work in the love and light, and offer them an ear sometime in return for all the kindness and assistance they give you on a regular basis.

 

 

 

 

 

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