I don’t know how else to put this. I had my second dose of Pfizer two weeks ago and I’ve become convinced there is something in these vaccines that cuts people off from spirit.
It’s like my consciousness has been leashed and life has turned the volume down real low. I had an intense spiritual awakening about 2 years ago triggered by psychs and it’s like all the connection I gained has been erased. I think this is some kind of evil alien tech I’m not even joking. Like Law of One Orion type shit, to stop us ascending whatever that means. I can’t describe the change in my awareness, I struggle to believe it myself. Like my Mode of Operation has been changed. I’m lucky I’m even conscious of it, because I feel like most people aren’t really in touch with spirit and wouldn’t notice anything wrong. For me this is hell. And I know some of you know what I’m talking about when I say I feel like I’ve betrayed my soul’s mission. It’s like there is no forgiveness for me, I’ve failed and allowed myself to fail knowing something was wrong, I didn’t have faith. Part of me thinks I did this on purpose because my connection was so painful. But nothing is worse than this, I’d rather be suffering.
I can no longer:
– Feel empathy, or deep emotion, heartfelt emotion. You know that thing in your chest where you feel, physically, not intellectually. It’s gone. No love, happiness, sadness, anger, anything. No compassion.
– Transcend myself in meditation, feel infinity, God and the like. Like I’ve been reduced to my 5 senses, and even those have been diminished.
– Feel my intuition at all, no gut feelings whatsoever, it’s like I’m completely blind.
– Feel music, art, food. Be passionate about anything, have motivation for anything, I don’t even feel hungry or tired, I feel nothing. Not a numbness, not a dissociation (I’ve had both), but a straight up lack, a severance to that spark that animates our inner lives.
– Lucid dream, astral project, even feel my energetic body at all. It’s like it has dissipated.
– Sleep properly at all, and when I do it’s like I can’t enter as deep a sleep as I used to.
– Breathe or yawn as deeply as I used to?? Which may seem unrelated but breath = prana = lifeforce…ygm
Basically I feel like a bot
If anyone knows ANYTHING about this or how to reverse it. I’ve seen all the shit about funvax and whatever, if this is science it has to be reversible somehow. Hopefully if I don’t take boosters and work on my connection I might be able to improve it. If anyone has been through the same or knows anyone who has, DM me. I had an extremely strong intuition (last one I’ve felt) telling me I would basically die if I took this dose, but my mother is my weak spot and I caved to her (doesn’t help that I’m financially dependent on her etc.) but honestly I should’ve become homeless rather than do this. Now I’d rather become homeless than ever take a booster shot. There is no life without love and yet that is the life I’m now living. So yeah. If anyone had their doubts about the vax, here is my theory on what it does, based on personal experience
EDIT: apparently the heart contains 40,000 neurones, and I’m pretty sure the heart is the ‘heart’ of all of this so to speak. It’s both the seat of emotion and the seat of spirit, linking soul and body, mind etc. – I’m thinking this vaccine has a way of shutting this process down. Does anyone know anything about heart neurones or how I can reverse the damage done to them/turn them back on?
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